Pain......

We all feel pain at some point in our life. It may be a cheating spouse or sexual abuse or a wrong that was done to us for no reason at all. We all have had it done to us at one point in our life. I know I have. I remember many things that I wish God would take away from me. The lack of a father figure or the inappropriate touch of the baby sitter when I was young, even the starting over from scratch as my world was ripped apart by a federal agent as my parents company was thrown into oblivion by bad people giving bad advice. There is the pain that no bottle of liquor or shrink can take from me. Its a PAIN I had to feel,for he has let me feel it. One day I will truly understand why but for I now I just ponder why.I still must not doubt the reason why but just know that there is a reason and one day I will know why.I can't relish on the facts that I felt the pain I must trust in him that his plan is for me and I am his and all the mess and drama of my life. He will take me where I need to be. Dealing with pain is hard and the enemy feeds on it big time. All I can do is keep my heart and head on Christ and know there are far more important things going on other than the past in my life. I am HERE alive and living a new life, A life with a destiny that is written for a eternity in heaven. I am a Saint, even with my pain and faults I am a Saint and a creature of God and he will let me be the best I can,I must keep Faith in his will and I will be GREAT. He loves u and me the same, its the faith and surrendering to his will that separates us. Be faithful, be kind and Love him and yourself. He knitted you in your mothers womb and will never forget or forsake you. Don't turn your pain into a road block but a gateway to him. For god so loved the world he sent his only some to die for us, he loves me and you, so love him in the good times and bad.

Herman Cain Stupid People Are Ruining America

Casting Crowns - If We've Ever Needed You (live)

This song is so amazing. Love Mark and the Crew from Casting Crowns

A Time To KILL!

Today i woke to the news of Osama Bin Laden being killed in a Pakistan. I was in a state of Dis Belief and thought for myself, finally we took care of a man who had nothing but the full intention of ending our way of life as his plan for existence. Then i think that ok so we got rid of what everyone will agree with is a bad man slash EVIL man. I still wonder what God sitting up there; who knew this was going to happen is thinking about how we are reacting to the news. There are people singing and dancing in the streets, holding flags and say USA USA at the top of there lungs. I remember the feeling i had the day that we were attacked and seeing people in other countries doing the same thing at our tragic day when so many innocent people lost there lives and thought how sad it was to see people excited for death. I know the situation is totally different but i just wonder if God is looking at how we react to this event and if he is sitting there with a some what disapproving feeling, or is he giving his Judgment to a man that quote-un-quote had it coming. I would like to think that the later is the case but still there is a case that maybe it isn't. All i hope is that this unites the country for good and not worse. So i ask you is there really a time to KILL and what do you think God thinks? God Bless the Men and Women who put there life on the line to do there duty and defend there country. May we also recognize the hard work of the men and women in the intelligence offices trying there best to safe guard our way of existence.