Pain......

We all feel pain at some point in our life. It may be a cheating spouse or sexual abuse or a wrong that was done to us for no reason at all. We all have had it done to us at one point in our life. I know I have. I remember many things that I wish God would take away from me. The lack of a father figure or the inappropriate touch of the baby sitter when I was young, even the starting over from scratch as my world was ripped apart by a federal agent as my parents company was thrown into oblivion by bad people giving bad advice. There is the pain that no bottle of liquor or shrink can take from me. Its a PAIN I had to feel,for he has let me feel it. One day I will truly understand why but for I now I just ponder why.I still must not doubt the reason why but just know that there is a reason and one day I will know why.I can't relish on the facts that I felt the pain I must trust in him that his plan is for me and I am his and all the mess and drama of my life. He will take me where I need to be. Dealing with pain is hard and the enemy feeds on it big time. All I can do is keep my heart and head on Christ and know there are far more important things going on other than the past in my life. I am HERE alive and living a new life, A life with a destiny that is written for a eternity in heaven. I am a Saint, even with my pain and faults I am a Saint and a creature of God and he will let me be the best I can,I must keep Faith in his will and I will be GREAT. He loves u and me the same, its the faith and surrendering to his will that separates us. Be faithful, be kind and Love him and yourself. He knitted you in your mothers womb and will never forget or forsake you. Don't turn your pain into a road block but a gateway to him. For god so loved the world he sent his only some to die for us, he loves me and you, so love him in the good times and bad.