We are not alone, really!

Well its been forever since I have been on my own Blog. Well its been awhile since I have done a lot of things. I recently went through the entire RCIA classes at my local Parrish and was all ready to come into the church when a Road Block hit me one week before Easter Weekend. It turns out that my wife and I were not married in the Church or in a marriage that is recognizable by the church since my wife a catholic married me at a justice of the peace. Whoops, a minor detail not brought to my attention until one week before. Needless to say this was amazingly frustrating and I was floored. It caused me to really question what the heck I was doing and why. I went almost 5 weeks with out going to Church and even reading my bible. I separated myself from God and even fell back into some bad habits.

Things have been extremely off for me the past 6 weeks. I have had tons of struggles with fear and doubt and stress. Money has never been tighter for us and I have never felt as helpless as I have during the past 6 weeks. I have always been a winner and for the most part a success. This is the first time in my life I felt like I cant fix this. So I finally made the decision to take my ass back to church and dust of my bible and update my bible apps on my iphone. It was time for me to look to someone else for help.I am not here to tell you I went to church and my bills are now caught up and life is all sugar plums and butterflies, No it is not. I am just as worse as I was and I still have moments of stress and fear and doubt but I will tell you its totally different. The other weekend the Priest Father Frank gave a great Homily that just moved me. It was so simple but so true. The message was I am worth something. God gave us himself, his son and the holy spirit to look towards when we have fear and death. The Trinity is the gift that God gave his people to prop us up in times of need. No one ever said it would be easy, but knowing we have some amazing support maybe we can release some of this burden and place it upon him to help guide us through the wilderness off life. I know I will fall and fail from time to time but it is good to know that I have a God and a Church to always turn to for help and guidance. I am now renewing my vow to come into the Church in accordance with Church doctrine and one day I will take the Eucharist and have the fullness of the Church in my life.