Where am I going?

So I have been Missing In Action for awhile. I have made some serious life changes for me and my family. I took us from a state of comfort with a guaranteed income and lifestyle to a commission only life of uncertainty. My life was so stressed and full of pain, now i am still stressed although its a different stress. I have had some serious faith issues. Since leaving my work i started at another dealership where i went backwards and started over as a salesperson to save my sanity from my previous employer, the kinda refresh button needed to be pushed. This decision put my family and myself in jeopardy. I had a ton of bills and a ton of expectations for myself.

So here i am a few months in and WOW i am Broke, No Lie I have not been this broke in Years. I find myself full of doubt and fear, Boy the enemy (Satan) has to be licking his chops. I find myself looking for answers. I am a good salesman, I know what I am doing. I led one of the top dealerships in the southeast to being a top 5 performer and now I am broke and paranoid. The day is here that I throw God out the window and I start looking at me and how I can change it. The truth is that God dragged me out of my past situation to come to this point and led me to a amazing opportunity where. I can be close to my family and friends and LIVE for the first time in a long time.

***ORIGINALLY wrote on Sunday the 8TH of August**********
Updated now the 30th of August.......................................

So I went to bed on the 8th feeling all sorts of Mixed bags as to what I am doing and Why and how I got here. Well on the 9th, the dealership top me they were making a CHANGE, This Change included me and I was to become the New Sales Manager effective Immediately. I didn't know what to say or do, I was totally taken back by it. So sudden yet still seemed like i was back where I should be. Now I am working like I used to and doing what I am best at and it feels good. I am back.....I am in the swing of things again, I have a amazing opportunity, like I wrote about on the 8th. The truth is GOD saw me through this. He made me humble myself only to pick me back up. I thank him and praise him , maybe not enough but I do. He has provided me with a way that I can bless my Family and others and still be close to home. All those fears and anxiety can pass. He has me lifted up in his arms and he wont let me go as he wont YOU! Just Humble yourself before him and he will be there. Even when you feel you are doing wrong , or have strayed, remember he came for you and me not the so called perfect ones, although he loves them too. God Bless and see you all soon.